Britney Spears scolds sons for not seeing her: Just ’45 minutes in 5 years’

As Britney Spears responded to Kevin Federline s alarming portrait of her mental state and alleged drug use in his new memoir she disclosed her young adult sons should take responsibility for the complex relationship she has with them and the fact that she has not seen much of them in the past five years saying the situation has left her demoralized I have perpetually pleaded and screamed to have a life with my boys Spears posted on Instagram and X Wednesday night She was referring to the sons Sean Preston and Jayden James I have felt demoralized by this situation and inquired and almost begged for them to be a part of my life The beleaguered -year-old pop star noted that relationships with teenage boys is complex She lamented that she has seen one son for only minutes in the past five years while she has only seen the other for four visits during the same time period They need to take responsibility for themselves Spears noted I have pride too From now on I will let me know when I am available In current years Spears has expressed interest in repairing her relationship with her sons and has published social media posts about them spending time together But by her own admission that time together has been pretty limited WESTWOOD CA - JULY Singer Britney Spears and Sean Federline attend the premiere of Columbia Pictures' 'Smurfs ' at Regency Village Theatre on July in Westwood California Photo by Jason Merritt Getty Images Spears emotional angry report also accused Federline of gaslighting her and comes the day after the New York Times first shared chosen disturbing charges about her behavior which are coming in his memoir You Thought You Knew out on Oct An initial headline-grabbing allegation has to do with why Sean Preston and Jayden James were supposedly wary of being around their mother They would awaken sometimes at night to find her standing silently in the doorway watching them sleep Oh you re awake with a knife in her hand Federline writes according to the New York Times Then she d turn around and pad off without explanation But a new allegation from the book surfaced Thursday about Spears parenting that she allegedly did cocaine while she was still breastfeeding her sons Us Weekly shared Federline writes how he walked in on Spears and a young actress friend doing cocaine at the release party for his album Playing With Fire Their sons were months and month old at the time and Federline questioned her not to go home and nurse them An allegedly angry Spears threw a cocktail in his face LOS ANGELES CA - APRIL In this handout photo provided by the LA Dodgers Britney Spears poses with sons Sean Preston Federline L and Jayden James Federline R during agame against the San Diego Padres at Dodger Stadium on April in Los Angeles California Photo by Jon SooHoo LA Dodgers via Getty Images That was the proverbial final straw the breast-feeding thing Her reaction he writes Us Weekly stated That s what ended us After Federline sought his lawyer to draft a legal letter demanding she stop breast-feeding them Spears responded by having her lawyer draft divorce papers Federline reported the New York Times that he was never against his ex-wife and he only ever wished her to have an incredible relationship with their sons but her allegedly erratic behavior made them not want to stay at her house For the former backup dancer the book also serves as his way to sound the alarm about his ex-wife s mental soundness when there is not the kind of oversight that was provided by a strict conservatorship that a Los Angeles judge terminated in It s become impossible to pretend everything s OK Federline writes in his book though he acknowledged to the New York Times that he has not spoken to his ex-wife in years From where I sit the clock is ticking and we re getting close to the th hour Something bad is going to happen if things don t change and my biggest fear is that our sons will be left holding the pieces Federline s book also has grabbed headlines for alleging that Spears cheated on him with a woman early in their relationship while they were on tour in Amsterdam according to People It also alleges that she was using drugs and alcohol and prone to angry outbursts near the end of their marriage the New York Times communicated Federline a self-described teen knucklehead from Fresno began dating Spears in after she had become a pop superstar with hits like Baby One More Time and Oops I Did It Again They wed that same year but their marriage right away faced intense media scrutiny as they welcomed two children and as Spears personal problems began to emerge They were only married for two years before Spears filed for divorce and the two fought a bitter battle over custody During that time Spears went into rehab but checked herself out the next day Federline s book details the bizarre moments leading up to her infamously shaving her head at a salon near their family home After Spears checked herself out of rehab she turned up outside the home ringing the bell to the gate shouting things that didn t make sense and demanding to be let in Federaline writes according to Page Six At the time the boys were and and Federline didn t think they should see their mother in this condition Page Six disclosed Then she started climbing the front gate he adds I stayed inside with the kids trying to keep things calm Federaline s book also describes the evening in early January when Spears was rushed to Cedars-Sinai Medicinal Center and placed under a -hour involuntary psychiatric hold following a three-hour standoff involving their children the New York Times released It was one of the hardest nights of my life Federline writes according to the Times I felt sick over what she was going through This was someone I had loved Someone I had built a life with The mother of my children Soon thereafter Spears was placed under a controversial conservatorship managed by her father Jamie Spears which allowed him to oversee her personal and professional finances and her health care A Los Angeles judge terminated the conservatorship in In her social media message Spears rejected Federline s white lies in his book and the image of herself as an erratic mother saying I will reliably love them She also commented If you really know me you won t pay attention to the tabloids of my mental vitality and drinking I am indeed a pretty intelligent woman who has been trying to live a sacred and private life the past years I speak on this because I have had enough and any real woman would do the same A spokesperson for Spears also issued a message accusing Federline and others of profiting off her The spokesperson noted that the book sadly comes out after child backing has ended with Kevin The spokesperson moreover reminded the general that Spears has detailed her personal journey in her memoir The Woman in Me which is being made into a movie In that book Spears disputed that she ever had considerable substance abuse issues and characterized her custody battle with Federline as traumatizing the New York Times mentioned All she cares about are her kids Sean Preston and Jayden James and their well-being during this sensationalism Spears spokesperson explained